Day 29

Today was the Day of Atonement. I went to temple for the 10 am service. It finished up at 12:2o and I went home. I laid in bed and talked to Morgan for about an hour. Then I put casual clothes in my car so that I could change in the car to go to The Big E for the break fast. I got back to temple about 25 minutes early for the afternoon service. Services ended at around 6:20. I didn't stay for the small break fast they were doing. We had finished the service with a Havdalah service. Everyone was swaying with their arms around each other. The people sitting next to me had left early so I was basically sitting in a row by myself. I just couldn't handle standing by myself fighting for a place at the plate of veggies and hummus.

I got in my car and ate the granola bar I brought with me. Then I drove toward The Big E. There was a lot of traffic. I could tell that it would have taken me about an hour to make it all the way there, find a place to park and get inside. It was already 7 pm at that point I didn't want to wait an hour to eat. So I drove to Taco Bell/Pizza Hut and got a steak taco and an order of breadsticks.

Then I came home and here I am. I had a very thought-filled day.

I realized that I'm not fulfilled by my job. Ok, I didn't realize it, I've known that for a long time. I decided that I care that my job doesn't fulfill me. Now I have to figure out what does make me feel like I'm doing something worth doing.